Pinkus's Blog

I am at a crossroads in my carrer here at rose. I did badly in the three test i got back to a point where i will have to work harder then i ever had in my life to save my grades (i mean get like a 3.4 or so). It really pist me off when i thought i did well and i thought i did my best but it all comes crashing down on me. I realized that i really don't have anything that gives me joy in my life besides sleeping.

So there is 4 weeks left in the quater and a finals week. I will try for the first time in my life to truley do my best. I hope that i can last the whole time without going crazy or loose my current state of ambition.

If i don't succeed i am sure you will hear about it.

Holla out,

M JP

ps I hope i can give an more uplifting post some time soon.

Holla holla

Where to begin

I guess i could talk about how college is going. It is not very wise of me to try to tell you everything that has gone on in the last 14 months or so in my college carrer.

Basically
I lived in Deming Attic Freshman year. I got decent grades 3.3 average right now.

I liked about half of my hall most of the time. I became good freinds with my RA due to being in simliar clubs with him. I "surived" my class but never really felt "owenership" of anything. I was an SGA sentor and a RHA rep. I played alot of poker manily becuse i could easily hang out with the guy i was playing with. I joined two fraternites. People really don't realize what a "frat" is like a Rose. I don't really drink all that much, contray to popular believe. It really is a just a collection of like minded individuals who live together. It is kinda of like being in Anderson Apartment with out camp and instert alot of homework. I guess. The other part i dont' really like is when there is a bunch of people over playing beer pong or Country bar. That might change with time but right now I just kinda of walk around and kill time doing odd things.

What else, AXE is cool i guess but kinda of pointless. Make me feel smart.

Okay blah blah blah. Most people who read this are not really intersted in what i did in college on to camp stuff.

I was the Dining Hall Manager this summer at camp. It was a job that i didn't want to do. It is a job that i liked and didn't like basically the whole time. The parts i liked where the breaks i had which turned into alot of naps. Being around my staff when they worked harder the probably anybody else on camp staff. The adult leaders thanking me for doing what i was doing. The recognation that i was somewhat imporatnat in the grand scheme of things being called a "director". I never liked cleaning up the place all the much. It got annoying to sweep the same floor 3 times a day. Although i got good at it i never really liked doing the coffee. It was just a pain to keep reflining that thing expeically when stupid adults would get in my way when i was trying to refil it. It was a contast reminder of my job to keep that coffee filled up, and i think i did allright with it. There wasn't many times when people didn't get their black gold. I HATED THE DAMN MILK. i hate that substane forever. If there was no milk at camp i would of loved my job i pretty much could bet on it. I hated having to refil it after every meal. I hated after cereal in normal bowl meals having to clean cereal off of it. I hate when in the rare meal when i ran out of milk which wasn't really my fault, it was becuase i started the meal with half way full milk that i couldn't throw away adn i knew it was going to happen, trying to refil in the middle of meal. People looking at me like i was lazy for not doing it early or something. I enjoyed doing the calls becuase i really wasn't all that hard it made me feel kinda of smart recating to the situations that came up. I liked that i didn't really have to do dishes.

The other parts of summer went decent i guess.

For two weeks of my life i was in constant pressure to get thins done. The program wasn't all i hoped it to be in the long run. The meetings that i went to later where a big let down on how most people thought a certain way and nobody else though differently. I do respecet that i was given the honor in all though. I hated the paperwork involved, and so did people having to look at it. Dzzaaa. The worst day was on Saturday when no Ransburg M's were at random day of service. I was really about to just leave camp on that day. It was cool running up to the board getting my token but i really thought that i wasn't going to get it. I thought that i said something stupid, which i probalby did. That I took a nap when i wasn't spossed to. That i didn't do my best. I even thought that when it was going on that it might be for Sally or something instead of me. Though running getting the token the fastest i probaly have in a long time. Not being tired at all while running and barley able to put on my shirt were all cool. The meeting the next night when everyone in the room knew exaclty what they were takling about when a concerns for something were brought up without letting me know what they were.

So anyway. I got it and the rest of the summer i just kinda of coasted. I never really did everything i wasnted in the D-hall. I think the scouts kinda of liked me but who is to really know. I wish i would of just dressed up like i said i was going to. I should of brought stuff down with me in the begging of the summer. The year end report stuff was annoying as well.

I shouldn't of been the chief of the fire the begin with. If i wasn't that would of made my summer a whole lot easier and prevented the only "blemish" of my scouting carrer. The fire was very poor this summer, and it manily the vice cheif and my fault. The Vice chief trying to work behind my back, myself just being lazy stuff like that. There should be an addition to the firecrafter constitution saying that the vice cheif has to be the firecrafter coordiantor, and if there isn't a firecrafter coordiantor then firecrafter can not be a program at the camp. No offense to sox he did a great job, but if the vice cheif should also be the coordinator. I really grew to dislike most of the higher ups at camp. I just grew to not trust them, and beside my boss and a guy who signs his name in lower case letters i really don't like them much at all.

I felt i didn't deserve to wear my new patch week nine.

fff:
Everything that i could preapre for that didn't require the attendacne of others worked exaclty how i wanted it to. The events that required others to attend didn't go as well as a i hoped. I did the whole campout so i could be the first one to do so. If this campout becomes a yearly thing i will be known as that guy who started it. I never have been elected to any postion, besides cheif of the fire, so i don't have that going for me. I just wished more people would of come to it. I don't really understand why someone wouldn't want to come to it. I really don't understand why if i sent you a letter calling you a lengend why you wouldn't come to it. Oh well.

I hope that Carney can promote it better then i did i guess.



I have realized that my whole like is a series of unreached potential and dreams that came true only half way. I wish I could just enjoy what i have accomplish not thing about the things that i failed to do. It would make me a much happeir person. Though I believe it is just going to get worse before it gets better. I never do everything the way i want to. I always procrastant. I am usually tired.

But manily i am just to hard on myself.

Kay sara sara

Holla out
M pinKUS

-Life is what happens to you while you busy making other plans- John Lennon
-The only thing gaurnteed in life is that time will pass- John Pinkus

p.s. if you read this give me a holla back.
Yeah my grammar still sucks

Well how it be? Where do i begin? I don't really know where even to begin. I mean so many things i could talk about in these blog post. Anybody who has ever read this thing before will realize that i can just type and type with no real apparent sense of anything. But oh well, i digress, i guess i will start with camp. But before i went to camp i graduated no big whip just got it over with then went to Ransburg. (Note this stupid thing isn't letting me enter so thusly all of my should be spaces are just going to be tabs, oh well.) I can not tell how good of a feeling it was to walk into the dining hall during staff week. I absolutly loved it to the fulliest. I thought wow this summer is going to be great, and great it turned out to be. Now i am not going to lie there were times when i was mad about something or another. I was upset about somebody doing something they shouldn't have. Mad at myself for doing something stupid, but it was much better then last year. Why you ask was it much better then last year? Was it that i was older, maybe i am basically the same person i think so i don't think that is the case. But then again it might be the main reason i liked this year so much was the Anderson Aparment. My "family" Jason, Sox, Wally, Luke Mc, Seth, Grandpa, Homer, Josh Howell, my daddy Nate, and big Adam. I didn't believe sox when he told me i was in his aparment, i thought he was lying, but there i was in there. I was certain that i was going to be stuck down to the inlow which i would of been pist about. I loved staying up late, i loved the wild conversation with Luke Mc. The one about the OA Firecrafter Battle, or the "DON'T ROCK THE BOAT!". There were times i was mad about basically everyone in the room for something, but over all it was a great time there. The weekends were strait chill, rather hanging with sox or luke was the norm for me. The weekend i was sick and i went to bed at like 7:30 and watched the werid ass Requirm for a Dream, since the rating was unrated due to sexual content, was great. I mean i can go into great detail about every week in think, but that isn't for tonight. Eagle Quest accutally was a lot of fun this year. Kaspar and I got along much better then ever before, at first i tryed to be a jackass and make his life harder. But i just realized that wouldn't do any good so i just basically let him take control. I worried about having fun with the campers and improving the area. Ben and I also were blessed to have rick around, sure he was annoying for us at the begging. But by the end of the summer the kid really came thru. I think i wouldn't of had such an almost relazing summer in EQ compared to last year with out him. He would teach something and take the kids when Ben and I would just chill. Of course sometimes like everytime he went to long, but oh well it doesn't manner now. I think the campers enjoyed the program alot more, and i sure got a lot more kudos (which isn't that improtant in all reality but some weeks i had a couple a guess). Sure there are still something we can work on, but once again i doubt you guys want me to go thru everyting. Stupid no enter driving me crazy. Last year i left wondering why, and i honestly thought that I did a bad job in the area. I thought man those kids didn't really learn anything improtant, it wasn't orgainzed, it was boring, and it was mostly my fault. Which was basically the truth. This year i left thinking i did basically everything i set out to do, with the expection of maybe the more elabrate gateway i wanted and such. I would of in the future make more of a point to have almost every requirment covered i can, but oh well. So i thought i did a better job which i can say and walk away with a little pride. Kaspar, Rick, and I were a good team looking back at it. Firecrafter wise i became know as the "Hardest grader in camp". Why did i get this title, did i not pass everybody, no, was i harsh for no reason, no, was i fair, yes. To be honest the reason i grade why i grade is simply because i have standards. I have standards for the people that are going to be in this orgainzation, i don't think just anybody so be a firecrafter. If you are the first person in your troop and becuase of that you don't know how to put on a program, you can do it again. What is a kid going to learn about life, and himself if he just gets Firecrafter handed to him cause somebody feels bad for him. So, basically i am a firecrafer that thinks it is 1998 or something, and i don't plan on changing anytime soon. I think that out of the 236 new firecrafters maybe MAYBE half of them will go to ritual next year. Most of them probalby will never even have to worry about how they are going to attach their patch to their fireshirt since they never will. Most of them will probably have to worry about where they will put their firecrafter rounder, when they go to philmont or sea base and they put that patch there instead. I don't know how some people can go thru ritual and just not get inspired to do better with themself thru scouting. I mean i joined camp staff becuase of ritual, i laughed at joining camp staff in 2000 when a troop mate of mine went to the meeting. Now i cant image myself not being on it. That is the feeling i got when i walked to thru the path between the dinning hall and directors cabin. This summer also brought about me a lot of uneccsary jealously due to the M stuff that went down. I thought most of the people that did a candaicey deserved to pass, some i didn't. Though i will not metion names for both their and my sake. Just to many is basically what I thought, and next year there will not be as many hopefully. This is all i will talk about that in this public setting. It was the best summer of my life, and in my eyes it ended at ritual. Ritual was really almost a feeling of acceptance that this whole summer has been for me. To be able to play with the big boys is one way to put it. I just thought that i kinda of belonged on the more ritual staff side thought i really wasn't part of ritual staff. I was in the cabins, and went to fridays and saturdays meeting, but i didn't say that much. I just made it a point to help other people at all times, i just did random stuff all weekend. Lead candiates to dining hall, flags, cleaned paint brushes, stuff like that. I lead a crew that made what i am going to call the Pinkus trail. Which looks really cool, i got to work with a really cool adult the whole day too. It is a meaniful project that i can look back on, not just the stupid painting of shelters. I was really upset to be honest when i didn't win anything at elections i really wanted to just be able to have a office to give back to the organiazation. I was like damn this sucks just lost 3 more elections at ritual just like last year. Then i though wait a seconds where was a two years ago. Two years ago i just got my firecrafter i knew NOBODY. I didn't even know who Sox was. Nobody knew who i was, there was no 132 firecrafters to shake my hand or make a rounder for me. There were no buddies that i knew that i hung out with on saturday night after the hill. I slept by myself in the ecology pine grove (which is full of posion ivy, but i was so tired i didn't care). I wanted to get elected to something that day, but i wasn't even considered since nobody knew who i was. So that ritual i made a pledge to myself to just get active and i did in my ember. I joined camp staff and went to last years ritual, and lost the ember cheif job. Manily becuase though i had been on camp staff for a year not that many people knew me. This year i lost treasure but i am sure i would of won ember cheif if i ran, but i am to old for that. I just wish i would of gotten firecrafter in 1999, joined camp staff in 2001 spent a year in tent city. Become the ember cheif, maybe even vice cheif the next year, blah blah blah. But i didn't, and ka saraw saraw (I know i splet that wrong). Okay basically this next year i just hope i stay active, i am going to college at Rose-Hulman which is going to be really stressful for me, but i must Keeping scouting the rightful place in my heart. Also next year be it ridge commishoner or EQ director i must never betray the trust younger scouts have place in me. I said this 2 years ago not aware of the time not aware of how tired i was. Not aware of who was in the cermony, not aware of where it would take me. It meant something to me then, but more to me now. I have been a firecrafter for 2 years the best 2 of my life. The best 2 summers of my life, and got the best friends of my life. How will the next 2 go, and will i pass the test in the end. Who is to Say Wish me luck at Rose i hope i will not go crazy. Till next time Peace. jpxxx p.s. congrats adam, ben, chris, and scotty p you guys will do great

okay i am done with this blog thing
to many people are rather
a) already at camp
b) will be in a few days
c) don't really care about blogs anymore

these are meant for us to keep in contact with each othere
and since in three weeks camp starts there isn't must of a point for this

it has been intersting i guess
but i never really post that much as well

cya you guys at Beautiful Camp Ransburg

YIS
John Singleton Mosby Pinkus xxx bbb (is that what you do for botherhood?) "eee" ""QQQ""

hedihedihedihediho

so what is happening out there in internet land.

how be going

so what is up with the big j to the p read and find out


The weekend before sf for the longest time i did nothing. It was pretty fun just sitting around watching the time slip away from lack of doing anything constructive. Though to my defense i did do some stuff on sunday, i think i don't really remember.

Anyway school has been just all right as of late.

I was thinking that i would of been nomianted to be president for my gov class little campagin game but i lost. It is all good though since the guy who won has a better chance to win the election for our class. I am the vp so i don't really mind.

But then i was thinking why do i always loose elections.

Well lets take a trip down memory lane

student body president april 2003
I run under the whole pfp pinkus for president.
I make buttons
I put up 125 signs in the cafteria
My signs were by far the best
i hand out suckers to the freshman that say pinkus for president on the side (simply attaching a piece of paper to them)
i wear an armni suit to school on the day of the election
i work my tail off for two weeks prior to it
i for the debate was the only honest person there
but what did it get me
last place
dzzaaaa

basically the people who voted for me were my friends or people that knew i would do stuff. Though it would of been pretty funny to see me standing up at pep rallys. It would of been great.

Senate
2003
same sort of thing as before
i make signs only though
accutally get less votes then sbp
which is odd since people can vote for 6 senators when they vote


skip over to ritual

ember cheif
i run up against evan SNIPES. now i like ben i used to like him, then i went to summer camp i hated him. Then i realize that he is pretty cool so i like him again. though his brother is a cool guy and all he really doesn't care all that much about the ember. So i get my butt kicked at ritual mainly since they didn't know either of us. Worthless firecrafters who just show up to ritual

They should all be shablamed

vice cheif
now this one i was mad about.
sorry butters i was
i lost by one vote, one stinkin vote. I can't really say what took place at the election but i heard some shady stuff
but it isn't butters fault that evan doesn't care

secatry/tres.
steven beat me. man i didn't know what to think after that. how could that happen. Should i stop trying, but i made a decision not to worry about the postions just to try being good for the ember. which i think i do allright, at least i have fun at the meetings

gov class thing
allready talked about it

sorry for that i don't know why i said it oh well

anyway

sf

before i went to sf i had to go to my band's state qualifing contest thing
which went was fun i guess.
i saw taz there which was cool

i just hanged out with my fellow perconsits the whole time
we ran out acting crazy in lc
good times

i wore my full complete firecrafter uniform under my tux
which i was extremally hot in the whole time

that sucked

so my band plays blah blah

i call up luke say this is john
why i don't know i am stupid
but he comes and picks me up
he sure sounds like big willie on the phone

so i strip out my tux on lc's curb into to school then i just have on my firecrafter uniform
i see luke coming i run into his car with c in and we leave

go to hardee's find out who is running eq (which i will not get into for many reasons i am fine with it. It will just be intersting to see how the summer go along)
we wait for ever for take out food

probably 15 min or so

we make it to belzer
i hang out with some cool people i haven't seen in a while

stuff like that just have fellowship

well then i went with smart and hayden to look for firecrafters to help with trail
we got sidetracked into talking to this asm in this one troop

they feed us
gave us drinks
all good

i go back to the new gryo nobody is there
so i just go to sleep

c comes in and him and luke and i go off into the woods

we find a shelter and we talk about all sorts of things

it gets late we all deicde to go to bed

We walk by the gryo again we see all of the explore girls
then byer
then adam reyonlds
then everybody cool

then everybody cool (not worthless basically all ransburg staff members)
go to steak n' shake

fun times fun times

afterwards i went with big nate, sox, trank, and adam to get food for woodsman meals

took for ever to find a place that wasn't closed
kinda of ill

i got to bed real late

that sucked

saturday
on of the longest days of my life

I eat breakfast
help set up the trail staion

i find out that about nobody is going for woodsman since my station was always the smallest
i made some jancked woodsman meals since my knife was too small

got really wet and really dirty from the biscuit stuff

it was fun though

after lunch i chill out a bit
hang around greg smith who is a k staff memeber
who is a total ass but funny as hell what he says to scouts
really men but once again really funny

he is also in my emeber
but he is like 22

i go back down to run knot tieing portion

before that i say the woodsman part of the cermony probalby horribly i tryed. i should of used my mean voice.

THE SECOND BOY SCOUT RANK OF ladiladiladi la
ADVANCE

knots was fun
scouts for the most part don't know thier knots very well
which is a little alrming
but then again we can't force them to tie all year long so they will forget

a few groups did allright i guess though

Carney showed up which is always cool

man i wish eq could of been pinkus, carney, and c
that would of been HELLA cool

after that him and i pied murph in the face which was awesome
sox looked to be upset at the how much pie was in his face

i let dreke used my rain coat since he didn't have anything so i used my tux jacket as a coat

i know it looked goffy but i didn't have a choice in the manner

the campfire was wet and i wanted to be over with the whole time

i sat with this campers that i knew and was in one of their skits

so i didn't leave becuase of that

chris's sleeping bag got wet so he left sat night
pussy

though it would suck to be in a wet sleeping bag

sunday
was relaxing not much done
i help clean out the shower house which wasn't that cool
i don't like doing stuff like that but i get it done
it had to be done

i said my good byes and left for carmel
tyler smart drove me home which i didnt' mind
i was just chillin with his baby brother pj
who really is a baby

it is pretty cool to see someone that young and how they interact and just simply observe

cool stuff i think

i get home fall asleep about a thousand times watching tv since i was so tired

stayed up late reading a brave new world

same old same old

i took my ap calc ab test yesterday
i think i did well
at least a 4

i know this post sucked oh well

i am at school right now in jazz improv
so thus i am doing nothing

till next time
YIS
pinKUSxxx

Hidihidihidihidiho

how it be

well um lets see

it has been a while i know

alot of happen
but nothing too important i guess

i won first place in forestry at so state at IU, second in Sounds of Music, and my team got second overall yahoo!

we are going to nationals

So thusly i am going to try my hardest to be Forestry National Campion
I guess it would be fitting that i would then work at a Scout Camp

Though regardless if i win i doubt i will now more then luke, but other than him and maybe the jew no one could touch me with the trees.

It was pretty funny during the day of the competition since i brought my backpack "ol' blue" with me to carry all my stuff

I really even wore all my backpacking gear since it was forecasted to be really wet and awul.

I got some strange looks walking around with it, but if it would of rained and all my stuff would be dry and there would of been wet. I would of been like Shablam be prepared.

So what else

during spring break i did basically nothing
i did a double sided jigsaw puzzle
http://www.gamedaze.com/customer/product.php?productid=102751
if you want to look at it

the stupid thing took me forever manily due to how hard it was to sort
i had to come up with many things to get it finshed but i did.
it is all just practice for engineering stuff in college minus the hard math and science.

Charles and i accutally put wheels and legs for our maribama
it looks very good know if i do say some myself
(we built it for sounds of music)

what else hmmm

easter was fine my family wasn't that annoying i guess

last week c and i judged for houndstock (my school's woodstock, carmel greyhounds)

and let me tell you it was very intersting.

i am not going to give out band name so this one band doesn't come and hunt me down and kill me.

but it was damn funny since the lead singer at the start of there set spit on half of the judges. I was like what the fuck did he just do, then i laughed since i didn't get spit on. Well lets just say his band got dqed for spitting, dzzzaaa.

i went to roundtable, and man i am getting to old to still be in the firecrafter/oa meetings. Oh well i just got one more then i basically disaper of the face of the earth as carmel goes at least.

i am sorry i wasn't at the staff weekend i kinda of wanted to go.
they way i read about it sounded to be alot of fun. I fell bad about it know, but i wasn't just sitting on my butt i was doing something.

my troop went to this place
http://www.torrentfalls.com/viaferrata/index.asp
and well it was quite intersting.

i of course did the whole course, but i wasn't nearly as good as last year.
i was like what the hell i am stronger then last year why i can't i do this shit better, i guess i put on like 10 pounds from the last time i did. That will do it.

stupid fat pinkus, oh well i will loose weight at ransburg then gain all back again
god what the hell i am saying i am not a girl, but i was mad it took me so long

i got pretty scrathed up to in the process, but they are just battle wounds just battle wounds.

As some of you might know now i am 18, thus i am now ASM.
That means i eat with the adults.
Which means i eat alot better then before.
We had some damn good beef strognof for dinner yesterday, and freshly cooked bread on the dutch oven every meal we eat in camp.
very good stuff.

I am now kinda of sad since i realize that it will be my last troop outing in a long time. Since execpt this next weekend, i don't have a free weekend till i am at rose-hulman.

if you want to know here is the rundown
next weekend-free
following-spring fellowship, and it is also the day of my senior prom, but i wasn't playing on going anyway. Man i am such a boy scout choosing scouts over prom, oh well
Ordeal- i am playing the guide
staff weekend-i will be there for that one, trust me
my sisters graduation-all weekend at hanover
my graduation
then camp
then grand ritual
then freshman ortiantion

booked till septemeber
the way it should be

i am out
pinKUSxxx

"Okay Taylor, so you want me to take your tent down in the middle of the night, take all over of your stuff out of it, and scatter it all over the road."

"You wouldn't do that pinkus"

well i did, the tent was taken down right when i woke up, and i only moved his shoes that were outside but still (this cons. happened cause a second year scout refused to move a box i handed to him).

well lets see what do you want to know

i really am kinda of sick of this blog stuff but oh well.

Breifly i will tell you some things

I drove on the interstate for the first time with chris Myers and Chris Murphy. The Cm squared i am going to call them, but i think i did allright.

Though it was sunday and there wasn't many cars on the road to begin with.

We went to go see luke and his bell chior stuff.

It was kinda of intersting, and a little werid at the same time to be honest. Though i did like the musicanship of the bellers.

I meet luke's parents and well everything i ever wondered about luke was answered by just being around them. It is kinda of intersting to see where people came from, and the Gobel's are no expection.

After the show Cm squared luke and i talked in the basement of his church, and we meet this caryoln chick.

Man this stuff happened so long ago why am i even telling you this.

oh well

okay what else to really need to know about.

I swept all of my events at regoinals for science olympiad.

That was cool i guess.

I was in Fossils, Forestry, and Sounds of Music.

Though there really wasn't much competition to be honest.

Two weekends ago i went to beautiful camp ransburg to particiapte in Marlin Spike skills.

That is basically a weekend long event where all you do is tie knots.

My kind of stuff.

But before i got there big willie had to drive me. And before he could drive me to camp he had to pick me up, and that took him a while.

Well apprently i must of not told him though i think i did to go strait after the intersection of 131 st and Springmill, and then turn left into the first neighborhood. So he didn't and it took him about 2 and a half hours to find my house. I couldn't make that up.

He accutally drove in my neighborhood a different entrance and asked somebody where my street was. They didn't know so he turned out of my neighborhood. Now i would of just kept on going randomly till i found my house, but i am not big willie.

He has a worse sense of direction then i do, and that is pretty bad.

Though he doesn't get scouts lost on the red line trail that is my job, hehehe.

So marlin spike was really a fun time.

I tied abunch of knots i never tied before, and hanged out with big willie all weekend.

I really love going down to ransburg, i just feel at home and at peace whenever i am down there.

It was also the first time i had been in the inlow where i really didn't have to clean it all that well, something that was hella cool for me.

The only bad part was the snoring old men, but that was to be expected.

I didn't realize till the end when we given our notebook that i was just a seat away from timmy goth's mom. She was there and she knew her stuff pretty well. She also looks like tim, like a skelton. Timmy i have always thought that you look like Jack Skelton from the nightmare before christmas, but i think i have told you that before.

I saw Luke Mc. and Stimey as well of course since they live there.

Luke was looking all grimy and rangery, which was intersting. I found out that they don't get paid for being assistant rangers, they just get free board.

I am sure they love what they are doing.

Jazz at the roof was friday, and it was very werid day.

So we first practice all day downtown at the indiana roof ballroom.

Not really we practice for about an hour listen to a crappy jazz band practice then get 2 hours to hang out in circle center.

i love the hanging out part, since i was around Charlie and David Shuck.

Though Charlie who claims to be a Metrosexual before the word even existed took about 20 min to try out this stupid outfit in express for men. I was so freakin board, waiting for him to figure if he wanted to buy the crap or not.

He didn't buy it also by the way. I swear i could never try something out that long and not buy it. Then again i really don't have much of a fashion sense. Sine i am wearing my firecrafter t-shirt and a white grey and dark red striped sweater with a pair of kakis. Ask C he saw me today.

Back to jazz at the roof.

The actual concert was pretty fun and sucked at the same time.

I hated waiting around to play, and i didn't eat dinner that night.

I took for ever for our time to go on after the served dinner which i didn't eat btw.

My group Jazz 1 played pretty well i think. It is really hard to tell, the crowd liked it, but they are idoits. I was of course not happy of how i played Minuado. But i am damn hard on myself regardless.

I had fun i guess while playing.

After we were done with our first set we had to wait around for the crappy bands to play. That took about an hour and a half.

I was tired as fuck the whole time, i didn't feel good cause i didn't eat. I felt like i was about to puke when the second to last band went on.

When we went for our second set i just told myself, John (i always call myslef John never Pinkus, but i hate when people call me John, it is a double standard i know if you don't like it i don't care) you are senoir, this is the second set. There is nothing sauce can do about it so just have fun.

I did, i played all kinds of crazy ass cords and werid rhtyms for my comping.

I had a ball i will admit, i wasn't tired anymore or anything.

Then i hit me right before we went for our last song this was the last time i would play at jazz at the roof.

Well i enjoyed my three times being there, but i think sauce was pist at me.

I probably sounded like shit, but i don't really care he can't do anything about it.

So that is about one of two things i will miss about carmel.

The other is Science olympiad.

I guess i will miss my friends, but most of my true friends are rather in so or in scouts so that doesn't really count.

I will miss good looking carmel girls, but i won't miss never being with them.

I left jazz at the roof somber and kinda of sad.

I feel asleep right when i got home.

that is basically all you need to know i guess.

School sucks i want to leave really bad. I am so sick of it, and i am over it as well.

I guess that is all

Also in my troop we got some new boys. I can tell that they look to me, and it makes me feel very old to be around them. Since i was in the postion in 1997, which was 7 YEARS AGO, damn i am old.

Also i remember that i have stuck around all of that time and i take a little bit of pride in it.

A techinally now third year scout just got elected my troop's SPL. He is really short and really annoying. I mean i was ASPL when i was his age, but i am Pinkus. I knew my place in the troop he doesn't. When he tried to boss the older guys in the troop (not myself included i am a adult now he can't boss me around and if he does i will just laugh at him) he will be in quite a situation.

So i will tell you how his first troop meeting went.

till next time
yis
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